Even the stars...
Shine a bit bright I've notice,
When you are close to me...
Still it remains a mystery...
~Lea Salonga, We Could Be in Love~
Yep... The stars shines brightly tonight. There is a beautiful big star shining at the east... and the rest of the stars scattered from the east towards the south. I don't know whether there really a lot of stars tonight or because I started to feel relieved.
Thank you for the call...
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Even the stars...
When the dawn come, suddenly it appears that the warm hand is just a part of a dream, a dream that will not come true. And there again, we sat still, confuse... but even more painful, because when the reality strike, we realize that it is twice a hit.
Plus, I don't know, how much time is left for me to breath. Is it worth to consume all the pain? Or is it wise to rejoice happiness only? If today was my last day, what would I do?
1. Take a leave
2. Talk to my mom
3. Talk to that someone
Above all, I would like to apologize to all for the wrong doing and heart breaking conversation, lost faith in friendship, and whatever sweetness & bitterness that we've shared all through our life journey.
Salam Ramadhan Al- Kareem. May your smile be as bright as the moon in Ramadhan.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Yes, I know I was being extremely stubborn in dealing the 'case'. It is not that I would not listen, just give me sometimes... I'll decide accordingly.
I know you and others are worried about the situation, but believe me, the harder part is always on me because I'm the one facing it, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day. I'm struggling with my feeling and yet I have to keep my rationality above all because the work here expecting me to produce miracle.
My friend, dearest friend,
Please be there for me, and please don't stop praying for me. Whatever you said is all true, but please trust me. Thank you for being the light when I'm in dark, it just, this darkness is escapism that avoids me to see the pain out there. When I'm a lil bit stronger, I'll open my eyes, and face the pain, again, with courage. This is my promise to you.