Thursday, August 28, 2008


Not yet 31st, but feels like posting this entry earlier.

The country is celebrating it's 51st Independence Day. Doesn't feel like. After 50 years, still no sense of belonging to Malaysia. We still belong to our ethnic group. The prejudice to other races is still thick and in fact, with all the riot and chaos from our political leaders, the plots seems thickening...

Luckily, there is still a lil kid, who enjoys learning what is independence is all about. Even though he is just practicing singing one of the famous independence song, but it means a lot, at least to me.
I hope this cute lil kid will always have the respect & uphold the good name of the country.

Jangan la satu hari nanti, kite hidup melata macam ni di tanah sendiri...

Selamat Hari Merdeka.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008


Let help me brainstorming...

How can I get a scholarship to further my studies???

1. MARA - due

2. Yayasan Pahang - due

3. JPA - due

4. Petronas - don't think they will be interested in bio thingy
Lagi??? Lagi??? Lagi??? Help me please... Need to get some fresh air..

::Additional note::
Thanks to old friend for the short, brief and inspiring discussion. Hope there is a light in the end of the tunnel.

It is always a relief when you find someone you can talk to freely and accept you as you are without prejudice. Thanks for guiding me up to here.

::More notes::
There's a light at the end of the tunnel. (n_n)v

Monday, August 25, 2008

The Exams

Wallau weh...

Went to the PTD exams last Saturday. Prepared (konon)...

When I was there, I realize one thing; besides my sudden urge to work in US (hihi... :p), I find that no fun lah working with gomen because:

1. No sense of urgency.
2. Everybody looks the same (not just looks, but thinks the same...)
3. I don't want to be brainwashed (when I saw mamat jambu, I wonder... Are they the next Saiful?)
4. Looks so uncool...
Not to mention, my Bahasa is very poor. I was comfortable enough answering my English essay and comprehension compared to Bahasa Melayu. It was damn hard to find the exact and precise words / terms in Malay. Not to mention, I easily get confused when the sentences become lengthy.

Dooh... I guess, I never make it to the next round. After all my solid preparation, I fail because of my bahasa. So not cool... :(

Monday, August 18, 2008

Sinful Saturday

Had a sweet and cozy breakfast at Wondermilk with Charlize Theron. The place is SUPPA KAWAI !!! Basically, the main attraction there is the cutey cupcakes. But, what I like the most is the interior decor (even the alas dulang decorated so well). It is a nice place to hang out and chit chatting (a.k.a gossiping) with gal frens.

Hehe... The strawberry is too yummy for lunch. Please put Cik Siti away from this mouth watering picture. Siti got nothing to do with chocolate strawberry and it just gives the strawberry chocolate a bad name.
And cupcakes for tea...
And menutup majlis all gals hang out with percikan bunga api di Putrajaya... Thanks to Charlize and Jessica for a wonderful sinful Saturday before everything turns upside down on Sunday.

Well, life is like that. One time you are damn satisfy with what you have, and the other day, u wake up realizing you don't have anything.



I love going to KLIA for some reasons. The easiest would be, I love to see the plane. Simple, dull and innocent reason.

Actually, the flight remind me of so many things. Reminds me of where am I. Where I want to go, what I want to do...

And of course, it reminds me of my lost and found.

Soon, many people is leaving... Leaving more empty spaces inside me... When will I have my wings to fly?

Friday, August 15, 2008

Friday Prayer

I wonder where is the current is taking me to...

I wish I know the direction.

And I ponder, why I learn stuff which nothing to do with me?

Here is my thought, this is my plea;

Lord, let your holy light shine on me;

Wonder will you, listen to my prayer;

I know I'm not worth it, but I need your help...

Monday, August 11, 2008

Lucky Me!!!

Lucky me again!!!

Homemade free foods for breakfast.

This time the meal is from Charlize Theron, beautiful babe from the Hancock.

Thanks for the breakfast!!!

Oh yea... Thanks for the coffee too. That's the 3rd from the stock.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Janji Manisku Terhadap Diri Sendiri!!!

I suppose to know myself better !

I suppose to know that I can't control myself dealing with it... Then why dare me self?


Because of these 3 pens, I broke a promise I made to myself.

For these few months, I promise myself not to buy any reading material since I got a few that need to be finished. I got 1421, The Witch of Portabello, 2nd chapter of Sherlock Holmes and a few more.

But then, as I went to MPH to buy those 3 pens, I saw this book. "Out of The Tempurung". The title makes me want to grab it, read it, digest it... When I looked at the list of writers, I know I can't stop my desire to have it. Kassim Ahmad, Farish A. Noor, Raja Petra (Just to name a few)

Wah... I'm so delighted.

Oleh kerana tidak mahu membuat keputusan secara terburu (konon...), I read the first article, "The Search of Malaysian Identity, Still". Heh... The article assures me than I want to read this compilation of articles MORE than what I have in my possession.

To the books in my waiting list, I'm sorry. I didn't mean be injustice to all of you, but it just I can't help myself for this wonderful all about Malaysia articles. Hope all of you will understand my love and interest.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

What You Give, You Get Back

When you give out something...

Eventually you will receive something... :) Mucho gracias my dear Munge for the lovely butterfly... Hope you like the publicity given. Hihihi

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Too lazy...

Too lazy to write. Just wanna share with you why I love Kam Raslan. Isn't he hilarious?