Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Im Done!

Im done waiting,

Feels so stewpit waiting and hoping and then waiting again... 
Please go back home... 
Tired waiting.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Done ranting for NOW!


Everything went up. Start from fuel price, and the domino effect take place... After one and another...

Do THEY listen to us? NO!

Do THEY care about us? NO!
Are THEY satisfy with what is happening? NO!
And the cycle keeps repeating. 
Hell I had been ranting about the same issue last five years, and yet it still happened now.
Keep documenting it fella, we never know when we might have the tendency to forgive THEM. At least we have evidence on how bullshit like THEY treating us.

I rest my case... But I will not forgive and forget the suffering you bring to us. 

For my own motivation and motivational boost:

"I slept on benches and everyday borrowed 20Rs/- from friend to travel film city" - Shah Rukh Khan

"I didn't even complete my university education" - Bill Gates

"I was raped at the age of 9 "- Oprah Winfrey

"I was sexually, mentally, emotionally and verbally abused by my father as far back as I can remember until I left home at the age of eighteen" - Joyce Meyer

"I struggled academically throughout elementary school" - Dr Ben Carson

"I used to serve tea at a shop to support my football training" - Lionel Messi

"I used to sleep on the floor in friends'

rooms,returning Coke bottles for food, money, and getting weekly free meals at a local temple" -Steve Jobs

"My teachers used to call me a failure" - Tony Blair

"I was in prison for 27 years"- Retired President Nelson Mandela

"Friends, there are many such people who struggled.. Life is not about what you couldn't do so far, it's about what you can still do" *NEVER GIVE UP*

Tuesday, September 3, 2013


On Sept 2008, I uploaded this image. And after 5 years, I uploaded it again.

Funny how easily we forgot how THEY treated us.

OK, back to budget controlling again.

Thursday, August 29, 2013


Image: credit to mark & angel

Sunday, August 25, 2013


We can search into seven seas to find a group of Malay who can sing another ethnic song but not even a single effort to start a ceremony with Al-Fatihah?

Friday, August 23, 2013


Always a handy tool in any crisis "PATIENT". ☝😌

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

What the...

This is an old issue, it suddenly crossed my mind yesterday.

Why on earth Faizal Tahir was banned when he revealed his body? Its not even aurah for him. No! No!

Why so many pretty young female artist is allowed to wear whatever the custom
pleased even though it is clearly aurah for them. Why no one banning them?


Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Previous Posts

I had fun reading my previous post and previous comments from people who previously become part and parcel of my life.

I somehow kind of believing that whatever happen especially a good one should be documented, because it gonna helps us to feel better in the future.

It also helps us in counting the blessing.

Our life is not all the time at far bottom, sometimes it is at the middle comfortably and sometimes at scarily at the peak of joy. No matter where we are, it is a part of life that we should cherish and enjoy.

For those who came and touched my life, thank you for being there at time you were there.

May I'll be happy reading this simple post next year.

Life is like that,
Me and my future other half...

I miss writing...

I miss writing and my special small crowd.

But I suppose it is not a sincere writing since I'm targeting to my small crowd.

I should just write and sing my heart out.

So those who feel will listen.

And those who doesn't shall walk away

Who else will listen to this bitter lullaby except me and myself?

Friday, August 9, 2013

Selamat Hari Raya

Selamat Hari Raya Aiditfitri
Maaf Zahir dan Batin

Ikhlas daripada,
Me and BAKAL suami


Tuesday, July 30, 2013


I hope it works!

Ranting: Malaysia and racial politics

I can't write this on my facebook, because the crowd might not be able to accept it.

I know I don't have to make everybody eats what I say, but I am too lazy to re-explain stuff. I write here, so it only gonna be read by Tia, or Anne, or Serena or total stranger. Else, this is just a "documented evidence" that I have thought of this at this very particular time.

I know this issue sort of dah basi, but still I want to express my apology to my Chinese friends on a few issues happened recently. Alvin and Vivian, that guy yang kena belasah, and maybe another cases yang kita tak tau.

I don't say that I agree with their childish action, but I far disagree on how they been treated upon their immature mistake. Kena penjara sebab upload gambar dalam facebook? Sebab ajak makan bah kut teh? Sebab tak menghormati Islam? facepalm* Well, comparing ajak makan bah kut teh and a malay muslim having liquor license, siapa yang lebih tak menghormati Islam. Why he did not face same punishment?
How could we expect others to respect our beloved religion when we are not doing just to them?

Since pilihanraya 5 tahun dulu, I already wrote in this blog, on how funny of Malaysian politicians. One time they call for Perpaduan Kaum, 1 Malaysia, and then, turning on the other side, they call for "Perjuangan Ketuanan Melayu". Then you think another races takde ketuanan? How on earth you preach for two contradicting ideas at a time?

I am not a big fan of politics, but when my future is concerned, the best I could do is pray that one day more sensible leader will lead this country and bring prosperity for everyone including ayam, itik dan ikan yang bermasalah.

Monday, July 29, 2013

Tale of a broken heart

I saw you there,

My heart smiles,
with hope.

We travel across the sea,

We submit our grievance,
to Him.

I tried to wipe your tears,
but failed.

Even tried to seed new hope,

There's nothing left to say,
I'm broke.

Wishing you happiness,

I know He has a better plan,
for me.

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Mencari Jawapan

Saya sedang memerhatikan satu pola pemikiran masyarakat.
Saya merasakan pola itu ganjil.
Tidak pasti samada keganjilan itu datangnya daripada gaya pemikiran yang tidak selari dengan kefahaman saya, ataupun ketidak upayaan saya mengadaptasi gaya pemikiran sedemikian.

Pola pemikiran yang saya lihat terlalu menghukum. Andai hari ini anda dipuja ke langit, tidak mustahil esok pagi anda tersadai dek satu kelakuan yang tidak diterima oleh masyarakat umum.

Pola pemikiran ini tidak menggunakan hak dan batil sebagai kayu pengukur, tetapi etika yakni satu set peraturan atau adat yang diterima oleh sesuatu masyarakat.

Rasullah senantiasa menggunakan bahasa yang indah dan akhlak yang terpuji tidak kira kawan mahupun lawan. 

Jika dibandingkan dengan pemikiran masyarakat kini, perkataan 'macai' digunakan secara berleluasa untuk menjatuhkan pihak lawan. Ini bukan gaya yang diajar oleh agama, tetapi secara etikanya diterima pakai oleh masyarakat, maka perkataan macai ini berleluasa. Maka masyarakat menjatuhkan harga diri dengan membiasakan diri menggunakan perkataan sebegini sebagai bekalan untuk menjatuhkan lawan. Adakah perkataan yang lebih mulia tidak mampu menjatuhkan lawan anda?

Masyarakat kita perlu dididik dengan konsep pemikiran yang lebih luas dan terbuka. terbuka bukan bermaksud membuka aurat anda 'cool'. Berfikiran terbuka yang saya maksudkan ialah kebolehan membuka mata dan fikiran, melihat satu isu dari sudut pandangan yang pelbagai, memahami setiap kemungkinan dan menerima perbezaan yang mungkin wujud. Manusia sememangnya dilahirkan berbeza, cap jari kita yang kecil pun berbeza, malah DNA kita juga pasti ada sedikit perbezaan walaupun daripada 2 orang kembar seiras. 

Hasil tulisan ini memang tiada konklusi kerana saya masih mencari platform di mana kita boleh mendidik dan memberi kefahaman bahawa perbezaan pendapat itu adalah perkara biasa, dan tidak semua perkara harus dijatuhkan hukuman gantung mandatori. Kenapa perlu cepat menghukum sedangkan kadangkala hakim pun salah menjatuhkan hukuman. Terlalu suci bersihkah hati kita sehingga apa yang kita katakan pasti benar dalam lingkungan ilmu yang cetek. 

Thursday, May 9, 2013


They spread fire of hatred,
The closer the bond between us.

And that's the friendship we treasure.

Monday, May 6, 2013

Beautiful life


I read my previous postings and in awe on how many good things happened to me and people around me. Maybe I should continue writing. At least all the good memories remain.

Appreciate our life. No one gonna do it for us.

The day when everything went black...

I did wrote on something bout the painful truth about Malaysian multi races country during last election. I guess I'll be barking the same issue over and over until we finally see the light or the stage that can bring us moving forward together.

It is very tricky to live in Malaysia if your mind always suspicious about race supremacy, money and power. Is that the ultimate reason living in Malaysia?

I am not a big fan of history, never will be. But, understanding human needs and feeling, I believe non of my non-bumi friends (excluding those who get their IC for election) ever pray to be born in Malaysia and treated like second-class citizen.

Yes, I admit they are far richer and better educated than me and my "bangsa melayu", but hey... 

Who actually force them to be who they are right now? 
Our system. 

What drive them sending their child study oversea with their own savings? 
Our system. 

What makes them so disgusted with us?
Our system.

Why bother if Chinese are so attach to their race?
Had you do anything to actually reduce the racial tense?
Had you do anything good to them?
Did you know we silently oppressed them?

It just plain fitrah when one being oppressed, they get together and retaliate. 
And thats what happened to non-bumi in Malaysia.

We should do something as well. To be able to live in Malaysia, whatever races... in pure harmony. 
No more divide, conquer and suspicious, but together, hand in hand and trust. Enough of racism thingy, enough of hatred, enough. 

I am devastated, almost lost hope to the system, but I do believe, Allah never wrong. Have faith, be strong.